Michael Bublé - All I Want For Christmas Is You (Christmas album)

Christmas is 3days away. this time, i wont be able to celebrate it at where i used to be. i'm stuck with my internship at KL. it's been about 3months since my last visit back to my hometown. I wanted to go back Mlc badly, cuz its been awhile and it's Christmas! moreover, this song pretty much explains why too, like every single word of the lyrics.

p.s this version is much more nicer cuz its slower. hehe.

SHELL

this is the kind of memory i want to have with you(wallet).

p.s. hoping >> fiction becomes reality.

Ed Sheeran ~Thinking Out Loud [cover]

Kodaline ~ High Hopes [cover]

new life

so i'm starting my internship soon, just gotta drop by to update cuz i know i will hardly update during my training. HEHE.

so, 3 of my sohai friends said we should get a gf during our intership. HAHA. okay, don't judge, u guys dunno how hurt we are already. ofcz, we all hv our own crush and all of the crush really crushed our heart. HAIZ.

i am really scared to take the 1st step towards any girl already. people said, "go ahead!", i did that a few times and, well, it hurts, not that i did not try. so, now i wont be talking to any new girls if its not necessary.yes, i am sort of avoiding girls now............ sorry, if i made you feel that i'm some kind of freak. I am done being hurt.

still waiting for a girl to approach me tho, and ofcz i wont have an impulse to accept it, i will consider, think properly but if we want each other, WHY NOT? HAHAHA girl, please give me hints!! BIG HINTS so i know i've got the chance too. *blueks* well, you'll know if i asked ur number for no reason.

p.s. bless me for my new life yo! hoping it's NOT another broken hearted life again.......

Fine Dining (4 course)

a veryyyyy late post.

gonna copy and paste from the event i created on fb that i used to invite people. hehehe. so lazy, i know.

"Some of you might be wondering, why am I posting those 4pictures of foods and asking you guys to attend my
 4course event. so I'm here to make it crystal! Gonna try to write 
it as simplest form as possible.

1. 4course (Appetizer, Soup, Main course, Dessert)

2. Serving you one by one.

3. Every students here will have a chance to be the
 executive chef and run the restaurant 

for lunch/dinner time. My college have a restaurant for us to do so!

4. Basically, I'll be the executive chef of the day if you 
attend the 4course event of MINE.

5. the menu is prepared by the executive chef (me).

6. It's our student project, minimum target is to sell 
our menu to 40pax!!!

7. can you see how much I need all of your support? Just bring along anyone you wanna bring as much as possible!!"

i deleted some. hehehe.

so, my 4course was wonderful cuz of the people around
 me. those who attended, my classmates, my instructor, 
my colleague, made it wonderful! cut the crap 
n here's the pics.

me. heheeeee. XDD

my ticket!

appetizer : deep fry polenta served with mushroom ragout

soup: curried cauliflower soup

maincourse : chicken curry with saute vegetables

dessert : chocolate brownie topped with chocolate ganache

my family and relatives!!! <3 td="">

sisters!! 3rd sis in SG, can't make it. :((

Jessica Lee > me > Evin Gan

Taufik!

Georgina and Koa

Nigel(the annoying one) and Aaron

FRIENDSSSS who attended! *hugsss!*
with a bunch of photo bombsssss(my classmates) behind
front : Aileen Lim > Swee Chin > me > Juo-Yee > Chia Mei > Angie Wong
back : Jin Zheng > Gary Tan > Zhi Yong > Steven Low > Daniel > Yong Liang > Zhan Yang > Aaron > Nigel > Taufik

L/U6A3 of 2011/2012 from Malacca High School!!
of course not all the class attended.
I did not regret that i entered F6 because they came into my life!

*tadah!!* surprise to all my guesst!! 

yes, performances(4songs) by me! i know it's a 
little weird playing a guitar 

and singing wit a chef's uniform. LOL

i don't think i can share the video here, because 
one of my brother uploaded on fb and it 

can't be view by everyone unless you guys are
 friends on fb.
 will post it someday IF i got 

the video. hehe. if not, too bad.... xp

so, that's it! XD

P.s. i am really glad to know all of you in my life. i appreciate it.
 :)) XOXO

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Justin Timberlake ~ Not A Bad Thing [cover]

P.s. i'm in love with this song~~ hehe. another cover by me!

Good Charlotte - Change (Letra y traducción)

-throughout all of this confusion, I hope I somehow get to you

-you said you cant change the way you feel. (i could never do that, i could never do that)

-and now you've got me watching your eyes (watching just to see, watching just to see), you got me waiting just to see (if you'll ever look at me)

-if it goes the way it never will (will it ever go, will it ever go my way), your eyes are watching me.

p.s. hold on?

i dono

am i losing you or i'm thinking too much now? i hope i sense wrongly. but... i dono

Lazy to count days in CCA

oppp! so sorry, for not updating what i've learnt in the kitchen for about 3months? and sorry for those emo post before this. i just needed to. xp.. so, this would be the final blog to talk about what i learnt in the kitchen cuz now already started our student project >> fine dining event (4course), will explain in another post ltr k! now, picsss of what i've learnt.

Poached Red Wine Pear

Prawn Cocktail

Nicoise Salad

Caesar Salad

Roast Quail

Brown Lamb Stew (Y)

Consomme

Beef Wellington

Roast Rack Of Lamb (Y)

Gazpacho

Poached Salmon

Salmon Gravlux (Y)

Quiche

Fillet de Sole Beurre Blanc

Poisson Meuniere

Pizzaaaaaa

Chicken Galantine

Orange Duck

Cream of Potato and Clam

Fish Terrine & Chicken Pate

P.s. The end of my syllabus! Just a blink of an eye huh?? it's like i just started my college life not long ago!

still you

it's been about a month, we hardly chat cuz u hv to prepare for ur exams. and now that u fin, i've waited. excitedly waited for this day to come but... it seems, foolish. u doesnt seems to feel this way too... yea, i know. HOPING too much. blame myself. JUST KILL ME CAN?

i'm afraid i cant do this anymore. i wanted to leave, i wanted to give up. but

i dowan you to feel everybody is the same like "they come and in the end they left"

i dowan to be the "i hate getting too close to people because when i thought they would always be there for me, they eventualy leave"

but i'm afraid.

they said, nothing last forever and nothing stays the same so why cant i stop having the feelings towards you?

2years, can say nothing stays the same in 2years? especially, when the person already rejected you.

i cant do this, i'm afraid some day.

P.s. I LOVE YOU

just needed a space.

she tweeted " U have to open ur heart n accept new people u know"

I was surprised, she actually have that thought.

So, I replied to that tweet, saying "u telling urself dat ar?"

her "yea~~ how u know?"

me "actually I dun, I just wanna indirectly tell you cuz I'm still hoping."

And she favorited that, the end.

What does that even mean? I am really scared to think or expect anything already. I'm just hoping she will open her heart to me and accept me and I hope she will hv that thought cuz she thinks of me? FAK, I know that only will happen in my own created dream, but, hope. I don't think I even understand what is the meaning of "hope" any more. I'm hoping too much, too much. I become so numb already I guess but still sad.

After awhile I thought, maybe her mind has someone else when the tweeted the thought, not me in her mind. That person made her think she have to open her heart and accept new people (which is in her mind).

I don't know what to think any more.

She vividly told me that she has no feelings towards me but what is HOPE?

P.s. I hope i can let it all burn.

BAD DAY

Today, Monday, MONDAY BLUE is fine, whatever but thing's got kind of bad when I reached my school and only to realize that I'm actually driving a car without the front number plate!! The only good thing about today was, there isn't any police to notice about it, if not surely got a summon like no doubt. then, school no water! kitchen, no water. you have to cook, oily, this and that n no water. I doubt the things that we eat and the utensils and equipments are clean. Got back home, yea, before I continue. I am staying at the apartment, so it's like there is only one parking lot inside(means you passed the guard house) for each house. that one parking is my sister's parking lorh, so I park outside, yes, which I have to walk for about 6mins from the hse to the car or vice versa plus, if u got back home late and u have to park very far already, so basically i have to RUSH to get parking so I dont have to walk so far. so, I got back home and i went looking for the number plate and yes, I thank God it's on the floor. I picked it up n walk back home and trying to figure out how to fix it, at the end, i still have to go to the shop and fix it. Imagine, so late ad, if u move ur car and the parking will be gone when u got back and you have to park so farrrrrrrr. so fuck(sorry, really having bad mood now). so, i waited my sis to cum bek, i drove her car out den remove my car and park my sis car to book the place. have to be fast, if not i will be blocking the road. so i went fixing the the car, after fixing it i went buying drinking water bcz fucking hse no water liao!! Actually have water but at about 6smtg the water stops, i hvnt bathe. how fuck. I buy the water, then rain. when i reach home, i have to exchange the parking space again under the fucking rain! and transfer the two big bottle of water to my sis car under the fucking rain! and when i enter my sis car, it stops raining. wat the heck is this??!!!

Then, it comes to my crush. yea, just crush, NOT EVEN MINE. i just get to know that some guys likes her bla bla bla. fuck, really no mood to talk about it. then i got fucking emo(dono for WHAT cuz SHE IS NOT EVEN MINE), because it's like one whole day bad mood, u accumulate allll and that one fucking thing just blow it off.. urgghh, and i cant face her now. we are chatting wit each other tho. and yea, she knows i emo. I need to hide it, cuz it's her big day tmr! and she had a great day today, i just dowan to potong her stim u know..... FUCK.

P.s. I'm done

Secondhand Serenade ~ Your Call [cover]

P.s. number 11

The Used ~ Smother Me [cover]

P.s. i sort of screw this up.

A song to share.

)

P.s. I wish there's a girl who sincerely dedicate this song to me and mean it. :)

I am waiting...

Extended blog about the previews post.

For those of you who can't accept gay/les/bi, this song is for you.

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ft Mary Lambert ~ Same Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlVBg7_08n0

-No freedom till we're equal. Damn right I support it-

About me having a crush on her for 2years. In the middle of these 2 years, I did try and literally tried to fall for others because I know it's impossible for her to accept this relationship. I did not know at that moment that I will have this crush for so long. Moreover, I did not want to lose her even as a friend after she found out that I like her, I, myself thought it would be my last chance to chat with her that night after I confessed but it turns out differently.

P.s. I will always want to stress on this point. Hoping someday you will change your mind.

What's in my heart? This.

See I can't wake up

I'm living a nightmare

That keeps playing over again

Locked in a room

So hung up on you

And you're cool with just being friends

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

And I can't see

Why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz I could me all that you need

Ohhhh

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

See I'm just to scared

To tell you the truth

Cuz my heartache can't take anymore

Broken and bruised

Longing for you

And I don't know what I'm waiting for

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

So just tell me

Why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz I could be all that you need

Ohhh

Why don't you give me a reason?

(Give me a reason)

Please tell me the truth

(Please tell me the truth)

You know that I'll keep believing

(I'll keep believing)

Till I'm with you

Why don't you love me?

Kiss me

I can feel your heart tonight

It's killing me

So why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz i could be all that you need

Ohhhhh

Why don't you love me? x5

Well, yes. It's a song and it says it all what's in my mind now.
Hot Chelle Rae ft Demi Lovato ~ Why Don't You Love Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kznkmWy-Q0

I wrote all the lyrics out cuz it's really from the bottom of my heart. I wanted to dedicate this song to you but I don't know when it's the right time to do so and I decided to blog it out cuz
it's really killing me.

Why didn't I highlight the sentence

"why don't you give me a reason"?

because, you gave me 2 reasons already.

1. you are straight.

(although I still believing maybe someday you'll change your mind just for me?)

(I know I'm a fool here)

2. you didn't want any relationship now.

Other reasons you probably will tell me.

(although you haven't tell me, it's my thoughts)

I know if you were to choose to be with me, it's so difficult to face your family. Sometimes, I did think about getting an orphan to be mine so that she can accept me for who I am and no need to face her family. I know I'm selfish but I'm really done being hurt again and again. Other than all these, I really don't know why don't you give us a chance. Or maybe, you mind how other people look at you or us? Yea, probably you mind. It shows you don't love me because you can't accept me for who I am.

You're cool with just being friends.

Probably because we have been friends and I would say, we were really a close friends for quite some time.

About 2 years?

Yea, for those of you who doesn't know, I've a crush on her for about 2 years and she only knows it recently plus it's I confessed only she know. She is damn donkey like I always called her DONKEY! We are now still a very close friends, we text, talk on the phone, skype, hang out, etc like we used to for the past 2 years.

IT'S REALLY KILLING ME.

Is this a test?? I don't know.

I kept thinking, what if this is a test? and I'll fail the test if I choose to give up.

If is not test, I know its killing you too for having me hanging here.

If it's not a test, I do hope my love for you will fade and just love you as a friend.

I want you to tell me the truth but I'm really scared to know the truth.

If only it's a good news for me then I wouldn't mind listening to the truth for all my life.

P.s. I love you

My life now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkvri2N0AFU

well, this is pretty much the same like a girl and me now.

I haven't reach to the Stage 6: The Escape. I can't, I'm stuck, I'm lost like in the middle of the sea alone, I'm confused.... I... can hardly breathe... and the fact that, I doesn't really wanna escape because I'm in love with her.

sentences that I highlighted from the video:

-basically all the words of the stages except for the last stage.

-hope she open up, but you, you are just careful.

-the things that running through your head because of the things she does, it's just CONFUSING.

-things now it's just perfect, almost unreal. some sort of tension in the air and you feel it.

-the way she talks, the way she moves, the way she smiles, just something about her that wasn't there before and every little things that she does.

-and maybe, just maybe, you feel HOPE.

-what was I expecting? what was I thinking? What hope was there to begin with?

P.s. I am still stupidly believing that someday and somehow I can change your mind.

My 8th and 9th Cover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcKVGiB1hRI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQkaM59HwOE

P.s. not good, so sorry. :(

Lazy To Count

I am so lazy to count how long have i been in CCA, so I'll just post whatever I've learnt larh yea. Probly just pics. nyehehe. Laziness MAX!

scones. the 1st thing I learnt in the kitchen in my diploma.

banana bread.

Marzipan work.

few flavours of cheese cakes.... YUMMY

whole meal breadss

macaroons

chocolate work

brownies. (Y)

learnt to decorate our cakes

biscotti

lemon merinque crumble

another way to present.

this is quite interesting. beef and guinness pie. XD not bad larh. quite bitter cuz of the beer.

bread and butter pudding.

that's it! yea, its pretty bored ever since we started diploma because a little bit more theory and we spent most of our time preparing those decorations parts such as hippen, sugar work, chocolate work, flour net etc. so, byee!

P.s. So lazayyyyyy