Extended blog about the previews post.

For those of you who can't accept gay/les/bi, this song is for you.

Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ft Mary Lambert ~ Same Love

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlVBg7_08n0

-No freedom till we're equal. Damn right I support it-

About me having a crush on her for 2years. In the middle of these 2 years, I did try and literally tried to fall for others because I know it's impossible for her to accept this relationship. I did not know at that moment that I will have this crush for so long. Moreover, I did not want to lose her even as a friend after she found out that I like her, I, myself thought it would be my last chance to chat with her that night after I confessed but it turns out differently.

P.s. I will always want to stress on this point. Hoping someday you will change your mind.

What's in my heart? This.

See I can't wake up

I'm living a nightmare

That keeps playing over again

Locked in a room

So hung up on you

And you're cool with just being friends

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

And I can't see

Why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz I could me all that you need

Ohhhh

Why don't you love me?

Why don't you love me?

See I'm just to scared

To tell you the truth

Cuz my heartache can't take anymore

Broken and bruised

Longing for you

And I don't know what I'm waiting for

Left on the sidelines

Stuck at a red light

Waiting for my time

So just tell me

Why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz I could be all that you need

Ohhh

Why don't you give me a reason?

(Give me a reason)

Please tell me the truth

(Please tell me the truth)

You know that I'll keep believing

(I'll keep believing)

Till I'm with you

Why don't you love me?

Kiss me

I can feel your heart tonight

It's killing me

So why don't you love me?

Touch me

Tell me I'm your everything

The air you breathe

And why don't you love me?

Baby

Open up your heart tonight

Cuz i could be all that you need

Ohhhhh

Why don't you love me? x5

Well, yes. It's a song and it says it all what's in my mind now.
Hot Chelle Rae ft Demi Lovato ~ Why Don't You Love Me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-kznkmWy-Q0

I wrote all the lyrics out cuz it's really from the bottom of my heart. I wanted to dedicate this song to you but I don't know when it's the right time to do so and I decided to blog it out cuz
it's really killing me.

Why didn't I highlight the sentence

"why don't you give me a reason"?

because, you gave me 2 reasons already.

1. you are straight.

(although I still believing maybe someday you'll change your mind just for me?)

(I know I'm a fool here)

2. you didn't want any relationship now.

Other reasons you probably will tell me.

(although you haven't tell me, it's my thoughts)

I know if you were to choose to be with me, it's so difficult to face your family. Sometimes, I did think about getting an orphan to be mine so that she can accept me for who I am and no need to face her family. I know I'm selfish but I'm really done being hurt again and again. Other than all these, I really don't know why don't you give us a chance. Or maybe, you mind how other people look at you or us? Yea, probably you mind. It shows you don't love me because you can't accept me for who I am.

You're cool with just being friends.

Probably because we have been friends and I would say, we were really a close friends for quite some time.

About 2 years?

Yea, for those of you who doesn't know, I've a crush on her for about 2 years and she only knows it recently plus it's I confessed only she know. She is damn donkey like I always called her DONKEY! We are now still a very close friends, we text, talk on the phone, skype, hang out, etc like we used to for the past 2 years.

IT'S REALLY KILLING ME.

Is this a test?? I don't know.

I kept thinking, what if this is a test? and I'll fail the test if I choose to give up.

If is not test, I know its killing you too for having me hanging here.

If it's not a test, I do hope my love for you will fade and just love you as a friend.

I want you to tell me the truth but I'm really scared to know the truth.

If only it's a good news for me then I wouldn't mind listening to the truth for all my life.

P.s. I love you

My life now.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tkvri2N0AFU

well, this is pretty much the same like a girl and me now.

I haven't reach to the Stage 6: The Escape. I can't, I'm stuck, I'm lost like in the middle of the sea alone, I'm confused.... I... can hardly breathe... and the fact that, I doesn't really wanna escape because I'm in love with her.

sentences that I highlighted from the video:

-basically all the words of the stages except for the last stage.

-hope she open up, but you, you are just careful.

-the things that running through your head because of the things she does, it's just CONFUSING.

-things now it's just perfect, almost unreal. some sort of tension in the air and you feel it.

-the way she talks, the way she moves, the way she smiles, just something about her that wasn't there before and every little things that she does.

-and maybe, just maybe, you feel HOPE.

-what was I expecting? what was I thinking? What hope was there to begin with?

P.s. I am still stupidly believing that someday and somehow I can change your mind.

My 8th and 9th Cover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcKVGiB1hRI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pQkaM59HwOE

P.s. not good, so sorry. :(

Lazy To Count

I am so lazy to count how long have i been in CCA, so I'll just post whatever I've learnt larh yea. Probly just pics. nyehehe. Laziness MAX!

scones. the 1st thing I learnt in the kitchen in my diploma.

banana bread.

Marzipan work.

few flavours of cheese cakes.... YUMMY

whole meal breadss

macaroons

chocolate work

brownies. (Y)

learnt to decorate our cakes

biscotti

lemon merinque crumble

another way to present.

this is quite interesting. beef and guinness pie. XD not bad larh. quite bitter cuz of the beer.

bread and butter pudding.

that's it! yea, its pretty bored ever since we started diploma because a little bit more theory and we spent most of our time preparing those decorations parts such as hippen, sugar work, chocolate work, flour net etc. so, byee!

P.s. So lazayyyyyy