Aileen Lim Zhixiang!! XD

Today is this SIAO CHA BO birthday wheyyy. HAPPY BIRTHDAY my 6 in 1 friend! haha. she said she can be my friend, girlfriend, sister, brother, daughter, and mummy, so this is how the 6 in 1 friend exist. lol. can you see now why i called her siao cha bo? haha. besides, she is really a crazy in a gud way and fun girl!

I know Aileen in MHS during our form6. As usual, i don't know how we can get to be this close to each other. haha.she said she knew me since F3 i think? To be honest i didn't know her til F6. Her elder brother are buddy with my 4th brother in law, so, she knows him and my 4th sister too because they always hang out in her house.

Aileen told me, few years back, when she was at Pak Putra with her bro, my bro in law and my sister, she saw me there asking for the car key from my sister then walked away anddd yea i didn't know she was there. Anyway, what past is past, we are now friends and is quite a close friend too! i'm glad that it is not too late to know her now.

This girl can suddenly text me or whatsapp me by saying "chio bu say hi. lol." and she sent a pic of her to me. =.= or "li shuan, ni ai wo ma?" and sumtimes just say hello. do all these for no reason, THAT'S WHAT FRIENDS DO. XDD glad she did all that so that we will keep in touch, haha.

she sent these to me without me asking for it. damn SS! lol

went to support her in polo competition at Stadium Hang Jebat. XD 

I know you don't really like this picture because of your eyes, i don't really like it too because i looked so fat here! >.< but we seldom take pic where just you and me lurh.....

Aileen suddenly appeared outside my house with Swee Chin after she did the same to Swee Chin. I know you miss us a lot! haha.

 

Well, i'm sorry that i can't be there and celebrate your birthday with you today as i'm in KL. btw, i know it's okay for you because you know, i know la.... hahaha. Hope you had a nice day! XD most importantly, STAY HEALTHY!

P.s. Stay in touch. :))

Standing In The Dark

I went MITC with Yong Liang today to watch the band competition. So far from my house right I know. Well, the main purpose was to see how it is because I haven’t witness one myself before. It was a great experience though. Other than that was, I knew my crush were there taking part in the competition. Wanted to support her quietly (I am not sure if she see me there), wanted to see her playing the instrument in band (I only know she’s DM), and most importantly, I wanted to see her (can’t deny that I kind of missing her).

I know it sound stupid but I am not a playboy, I can’t just change or forget about some one so quickly once I’ve decided to fall. Yong Liang was like “go find new one la you….”. I hope I can too so that I could stop loving her so much, it’s stupid.

We were talking in the car while I am sending him back home. Suddenly I said “aiyo, wanted to ask her whether she need a ride home or not?” Yong Liang change topic quickly and I give him a face like he’s not listening to me, then only he said “aiya, I want you forget about her ma, that’s why I change topic.” Haih, I seriously don’t understand why myself still like you this much. HONESTLY I DON’T. One of my other friend too like “walao you still like her?” haha. I said a little.

Don’t kill me if you happen to read this. I kept saying, she’s not pretty or cute but she has already kidnapped my heart. To be honest, she is not that pretty or cute. I tried to accept her for who she is, that is why I think I can’t get over her I think. I don’t want her to think that people won’t like her because of her looks. I wanted her to know that I am different that she can count on me.

P.s. everything’s hot reminds me of you.

Just Writing What I’m Thinking.

So, writing this the day before I start my culinary lessons at Cilantro Culinary Academy in Subang Jaya. XD my point is, I don’t know when will be next new post so I better update it now. Haha. I am gong KL later after dinner I guess, orientation starts tomorrow!

Well, as I’m going off for studies. I realize that human reality’s really sucks. For those who’s going OVERSEAS for studies gets the attention more than those are not, or those who pretty or handsome ones get the attention more than those whose not. Come on man, we are all human being. Don’t go underestimate people, each person have their very own talent you know. All these stuffs happened really motivates me a lot! For those who underestimating me, ignoring me, treating me like I’m nothing special and so on, go ahead and you better watch out. It’s motivating me to be a better and a successful person in the future. Thank you very much.

I am glad that a few out of so many of my friends that actually hang out with me just because I am going off for studies though it’s just in KL not overseas. Sometimes I’ve been thinking, I got so many friends for what? I prefer to have one or two friends who really treat me well and of course I will definitely treat them well too. I won’t be stating the names here, you know who you are whether you are SINCERE or not that you hang out with me just because I’m going off. I will know and I will always remember. Thank you.

Here’s a dirty little secret. I went to my crush house last night just to feel a LITTLE CLOSER to her. I drove and stopped aside where I got the view to just look at the house one last time before I left. I know I know it’s super creepy for those being crush by some one that you doesn’t feel the same way to and that some one were stalking you as u can say, but try standing on my side, I just wanted to see her but I know it’s not really possible. I am really sorry for making you feel so scared and really irritated. I really miss you. Thank you for making me stronger.

P.s. I hope I will know more sincere friends and my culinary carrier will be a success!! XD

Related to the post before this.

Here’s the one I said I will write another post cuz I din’t wanna spoilt the fun there. Um, the day before we go out. We were having a small maths test in class. Teacher kind of nagging me while marking my paper because I dint write out the answer properly. =.=, I know I know that was my fault, I did not get mad at her for doing that, but, I think she was kind of lost her mind when she’s nagging. She started saying, write down the answer properly MA (she speak in Chinese), write already your MAMA (mother) will appear already. I’m like, okayyyy, I was about to burst, I wanted to keep it to myself until she finish marking my paper. After awhile I really can’t hold it anymore, I just walked out of the class, luckily she started to mark some one’s paper too. I stayed at the corridor outside my class for awhile. My classmates know that I’m crying, so some of them peep at the windows and doors I guess? I wasn’t sure, I just feel it cuz I’m closing my face with both my hands. Then I just walked away to the toilet where I can lock myself inside and cry. My friend, Zhan Yang followed me and trying to console me. He waited outside the toilet, what a good brother.

We sat down somewhere after I came out from the toilet, I just didn’t want to go back to class. It was the last period of the day, so I’ll just wait for the teacher to go out of the class and my classmates to go back cuz I dowan them to see my face. So, I told him if my mum were to be appear if I write the answer properly, I will write no matter how many times! And I started crying again. Then, another friend, Wei Ping came. They kept trying to console me, I just kept quiet cz when I started talking I will cry. When school dismissed, SHIT, that teacher started walking towards our direction. she started talking to me, I’m like I can’t be so no manners for not replying her right, so I talked and I burst into tears again. Haiyo, school dimiss le, students passes by, so embarrassing!! I just couldn’t help.

She talked, bla bla bla…. I just close my face with both my hands, I can’t remember if she is trying to open it up. i remember I told her I didn’t want her to know that I cry because of what she said, that’s why I walked out and dowan to go back class. I don’t think she will realize I wasn’t in class though. Because she told me one of my classmates, Chia Mei, told her that she made me cry then only she knew. If not I don’t think she will know at all and won’t even come and talk to me after class. she even called me around 4 or 5smtg that day itself to talk to me again on the phone, I remember I was at nadeje! Haha. I din’t go back straight after school bcuz I was really having a bad mood. I just wanna take a walk. :) accompanied by Lye Tee and Wen Qi.

P.s. when I’m about to cry, u may talk to me, I’ll just listen without replying you because if I talk I will start to burst!

My birthday bash! On 10th of August, 2012. XD

It’s all started with I was quite amazed that one of my classmate Jin Zheng asked me out AT NIGHT, I mean, he did ask us out but very damn seldom it’s at night. So I’m like, wow, he jio to go out at night wor, I on! Haha. I told him I wanna go eat Wilson chicken rice when he asked me where to go. Lol.

On that day itself, Friday, he asked me again in school where to go except Wilson chicken rice, then I said I wanted to go to the beach because something happened the day before (I will write about it at another post, dint wanna spoil the fun here!) I will love to go to the seaside while I’m having a bad mood. Then he said ok, I come fetch you! Great! I wasn’t in mood to drive too. Haha.

After school, Jin Zheng, Steven, Yong Liang and me went for lunch. I asked Jin Zheng, which Wilson chicken rice shop we going, and if we go Gajah Berang there one den can ask Yong Liang come along cuz he stay around there, just the two of us only not that fun right. He was like, cannot, Yong Iiang’s mum coming back from overseas tonight and he have to stay at home. Yong Liang nodded and agreed by saying “yalor”. I’m like oklo. We continue chatting, suddenly Jin Zheng said “I wanna go buy cake le!” all of them stunt, haha, at that moment I was thinking something is not right. I pretend I dint hear get and after awhile I dint think about it too cuz bad mood ma, plus Steven changed topic after that. LOL.

Went tuition on that day from 5 to 7pm, Jin Zheng’s gonna pick me up at 8pm! While in tuition, I saw Steven and Chia mei dresses up quite nicely, I ajek them, “wah, aft tuition wan go dating eh…” (they both soon to be couple that time) lol. Um,  what cause me to felt weirder was, Teen Ann say to me “see you later” when I’m entering my car after tuition, or maybe he’s saying that to Thiam Rong? Then I started thinking, [Jin Zheng wanna buy cake, Steven and Chia Mei wore kinda nice, Teen Ann said see me later] hmmm, how are they gonna surprise me? At the beach? That is way too windy though. I think and think and think, I’m like nah, cannot be la. I think too much, I stop cz I was having a slide headache that time. (see, even God help them to cover up. LOL) I reached home, get prepared, sat down on the sofa and close my eyes trying to get some rest while waiting for Jin Zheng to pick me up.

He reached, I entered the car and I kept looking at him because I didn’t know why on earth that he kept smiling, nearly to laugh. I looked at him as he drove a few KM away, and I looked in front, I SCREAM!!! LOL. There’s a lot of people standing in front of the car, I didn’t know who, I mean I know they were my classmates but honestly, I only saw Thiam Rong with some human beings around at that moment and the next thing I do was I kept screaming.  Jin Zheng stopped the car, someone opened the door and trying to pull me out from the car but I stayed in it. Out of sudden, *piak* a plate of creams on my face. That particular one started the game with that and others continue with spraying on me! They even open the other door to do so. Yea, I am still IN THE CAR! I’m like, shit, if I don’t go down now, Jin Zheng’s car will be so dirty, and if I go down…….. I wouldn’t wanna think but I understand it’s hard to clean the car so I forced myself to get out of the car. The moment I step out of the car, FULAMAK! More creams and sprays, all over, all around me. No matter where I turn, 360 degrees, I was like being checkmate in the chess game. So you guys wanna know what’s in my mind that time as I could only think but couldn’t speak cuz I was flooded with creams and sprays all over my face? LOL, well, actually, my mind was blank… bhahahahahhaa.. okla, I actually have no chance to think what’s happening, who’s around me, how many of you, not even a second to think how can this happen?? So many question marks, and lastly, how long can u guys cream and spray me man,  when you guys going to stop??! Hahaha, no doubt it was really FUN. You guys really having fun of what u guys did to me at that moment right? I think it last about 5mins I guess?? Or more? Holy crap. Jin Zheng kesian cuz busy cleaning his car and missed throwing creams or spray on me. Haha.

When it finally stop, it’s time to blow the candle! Now, here’s another epic part. While blowing, got fire workssssss. I’m like, OMG so coincident got fire works some more. Then someone started, “you see, we put one the fire works”, and another, “yalor, we shared the money to buy that fire works le”, the following one, “see, so good ryt” and bla bla bla. I’m like, REALLY ar REALLY ar??!!!! LOL, they started laughing but still insist that it’s true where the fire works are for me. So, I continue blow the candle. After that, we walked back to my house. Press the door bell, and my sister open the door. She laughed and took pictures of me. =.= that day was my first time bathing outside my house in the middle of the road with my clothes on because I was TOO DIRTY to enter the house. LOL, I cleaned up a little before entering the house for the real bathing. XD My classmates all waited for me to bathe.

Done cleaning. Eat cake, take pics and we headed to Sunset Bistro at Klebang. :)) Here’s some pictures, I wrote too much so I shall let you guys who is reading this have a rest by enjoying some photos. XDD Seriously, didn’t think it would be this HUGE, cuz we did celebrate almost every single classmate’s birthday with just a normal surprise. I really thought it was going to be a simple one. This was the craziest we have ever done!

now you can see how was it.

bashed!

both sides, front and back. no miss.

Steven's bathing me. lol

me bathing in the middle of the road!

so yea, imagine YOU being surrounded by these ppl. 17 of them! plus the 2 camera holder. XD
Front line from left: Teen Ann, Kheng Guan, Thiam Rong, Lian Chuan, Me, Zhan Yang.
Middle line from left: Wei Ping Chia Mei, Juo-yee, Swee Chin, Daniel, Jin Zheng, Abby, Siow Huey.
The two standing at the back from left: Steven and Yong Liang.

one of the camera girl who took the-right-above pic, Yen Ching.
another one was Jones, sorry dint take a pic wit u. XD

While we’re on the way to Sunset Bistro, they told me they going to celebrate Thiam rong’s birthday. I’m like wow?! I seriously didn’t know any single thing about it. Haha, well, they bashed me 6 days earlier! We gonna give him an even earlier surprise, his birthday is 24^th August. XD I’m like cool, let’s do this! LOL. So, we arrived, eat, drink, chit chat, photo shootings… haha, and the funny thing when the cake for Thiam Rong is out to surprise him was, he asked “why Karen got two cake one?” LOL, another successful surprise guys!! Only that was without creams and sprays. Furthermore, we continue by walking at the seaside, take more pictures and it’s time to pay the bill. As usual, we sat down calculate how much each person has to pay, they treated me! Oh my, I am so lucky to have such friends, THANKS. By the way, I’m still believe that the fireworks are for me, =.= , I felt so stupid after awhile when somebody finally revealed the truth. It was just a COINCIDENT! LOL. So damn LUCKY! :D

oohh, yea, he being sprayed a little too. haha.

Us at Sunset Bistro!

The 4 at the back from left: Siow Huey, Yong liang, Jin Zheng, Daniel.

The middle, left: Lu Ee, Abby, Wan Chin, Wei Ping, Lian Chuan, Juo-yee, Chia Mei, Steven,  Kheng Guan, Yen Ching.

The 4 at the front: Kok Ern, Me, Thiam Rong and Teen Ann.

We head back home after that, but I’m in the car that’s says let’s go fun fair before going back. So the 5 of us, Jin Zheng, Wei Ping, Lian Chuan, Juo-yee and me, in that car hit the fun fair! What a sudden plan. We played awhile only, Bumper Cars and Ali Baba! And we had fun when we were on our way back too, cuz Lian Chuan and Juo-yee laughing like crazy persons!! I had SOOO MUCH FUN that day. Hahaha. XD

Ali Baba!! they are scared, not Jin Zheng n me. Xp

After that day, I was curious about how’d they do it. I asked, they said, they’ve plan it about 2weeks already. I felt even more stupid, cuz I’ve been surrounding by the lies for about two weeks in class! I’ll call it white lies. LOL. Here’s how they discuss, easiest thing, ask someone get me out of the class by saying “let’s go to the toilet”, Wei Ping did it. That’s the time they can discuss in class. Haha. On that day it self, they are all gathered at the petrol station, Petronas at Ujong Pasir, because some of them didn’t know how to go my house I guess. Yong Liang told me, they gathered and distributed the” KA CHANG”(weapons)which are sprays and creams, SEEMS LIKE WANNA GO “PEK YAO” (fight), like those gangsters gathered and distributes those knives, metals stuffs for a fight. LOL!!! OMG, so much fun! That’s really quite many of you guys man! With don’t know how many cars, I couldn’t remember. Haha. The MASTERmind was SOONG JIN ZHENG!! All my other classmates are so cooperative for this “pek yao” event huh? You guys can probably say this to me 

>> GOTCHA!! << :D

P.s. a MASSIVE THANK YOU to all of you for making it a real memorable day. The biggest birthday surprise I would say, right guys? :))

You Won’t Be Forgotten In My Life

People that I won’t forget are the ones that treated me good of course, I will definitely help up if I can afford to whenever you need help. What I mean is, I will treat each and everyone of you according to the way you treated me. Don’t get me wrong, for those who don’t treat me well, once or twice it’s enough and after that you better get out of my sight. I will not want to treat u badly. I will forgive but DEFINITELY not forget. Thanks for both type of people who treats me well or not, it’s a great lessons.

First of all, the person that I will never ever forget is my mother. The one and only woman in this world who suffered for 9months carrying me in her stomach with love, care, patience, and – more than words to say. I’m the youngest, the 5^th child of hers. Can you imagine taking care of your other 4child on your own with one’s still in your stomach? Where you’re feeling uncomfortable here and there, for example, back pain, feeling like vomiting, uneasiness in any movements, etc. And where your husband didn’t care about the family, went out everyday and night, sometimes he even came back with anger which he brings back from his own problems out there and started scolding or beating you up out of sudden, asking you for money, etc. I don’t think you will want to imagine all those stuffs right. Let’s skip about that bloody useless man. 

Okay, I get this from Google. A human body can bear only up to 45 Del (units) of pain. Yet at time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 Del (units) of pain. This is similar to 20 bones getting fractured at the same time. So you see that? That's how suffering a mother was. The only woman in this world who would take the pain just to get me into this world and hoping that I will love her just the way she loves me and my sisters. Yes, I do love you mum, ever since the day I was born into this world and I always will.

My mum had nose cancer several years ago, thank god she survived from that! Unfortunately, God only gave us extra few years to be with her. My mum passed away on 22nd of July in year 2007, this time's due to liver cancer. The struggled during the treatments and end up...... I just cant forget it, it's just too scary or I don't know what the words are. The recent days when she's gone, I wasn't really know what was i doing. I went school, back home. I'd just do those things that I have to. I was numb. Numb. Cried of course, I miss my mum, her love and care for us, her cooking where I get to enjoyed it whenever i got back home after a tiring day in school, everything. I still miss her until now. It's too late for me now to treat her well, too late for me to give her an enjoyable life, it's all too late! I just want to hug her again.

Now, I'll just hope that i got the chance to give all of my sisters an enjoyable life, 4 of them. I am not saying that I am the only one who gone through all these shits. I do know that there are people out there are worst than me or maybe faced the same thing. Sometimes, you just can't compare everything together. The feelings aren't the same. And sometimes, those are just words to make your self feel better.

If you doubting me crying while writing this, yes i did a little. I don't cry easily though, I just cant help with this.

P.s. Somehow I think it's great for her because she don't need to suffer anymore.

jz a story 8~

CONTINUE…

Shaun love music, for him no music no life! English song is the main language he’ll listen to, he will only listen to the others when his friends influence him. He loves playing with his guitar, not to mention, his guitar is just like his wife! He always learned songs himself from internet, English songs while he usually listens to English songs. He will never thought that he will learn this one particular Chinese song on guitar, and it’s simply because about Maryvonne. There’s this movie named “you are the apple of my eye” which it’s a Chinese movie from Taiwan. Shaun din’t know much about the movie, all he know is that Maryvonne loves this movie so much including the theme song which is why he learned the song. Besides, he watched the movie twice and thinking about her all the time for the whole movie, because the reason why he’ll watch the show is Maryvonne. “you are the apple of my eye” has also in story book that Shaun is wishing so much that it would publish it in English cuz currently it’s only have Chinese version. Sad, he will just buy no matter how much it cost if it’s in English.

Chinese new year is around the corner! Jamie is back again from Australia for the coming celebrations, and again, they both Shaun n Jamie texting with each other. They both actually talk about who they crush on, it’s so cool right to talk about your crush with your ex. Shaun actually trying to deny that he don’t have any crush, and he din’t know that Jamie has a twitter account and did saw all the tweets from Shaun. He was like, no wonder she know so much but she dint know who exactly the girl is. Jamie keep telling Shaun to go for the girl, hoping that he’ll have the chance to be with the girl. You know what? Jamie actually said that the girl will be very lucky if she really accept Shaun’s love, because she really felt so lucky to have Shaun as her boyfriend once and since she couldn’t be the lucky one, she hope that the girl that Shaun is going after will know it that she’s lucky. Shaun replied, “no use if you’re telling me this, cuz she won’t know that she’s the lucky one unless you tell her, and seriously, no chance at all for me and her to be together.” How good if Maryvonne know she will be a lucky girl to have Shaun as her boyfriend.

What else can Shaun do besides being her guardian angel without letting her know anything about it? Stil repeats d same thing > pass by her hse to check on her safety, wait for her to go back aft tuit, etc. There was 2 months Shaun stop for the tuition. And guess what he do? He still come to the tuition centre after every tuition classes to wait for Maryvonne to go back safely. He is really such a fool, in wasting his time and petrol. But in the end he still thinks its was worth it! Another one fine day, Shaun saw that Maryvonne’s mechanical pencil is so old and a bit spoilt, so he walk all the way to the nearest shop to buy a new one during tuition class! It was raining and he don’t really care, he just walk under the rain cause he wanted to get it for her before tuition class end. He bought, and he know that she won’t just accept it like that, so he done this stupid thing that is he throw it into her bag just like that. Hoping that she will just use it if she suddenly found it in her bag.

The next day, she came around and ask who is the one that put in her bag, no one knows but Shaun. Maryvonne din’t ask get him because she forgot what she said about the stay friend thingy. It means, they have no more communication, how will she ask him. She is actually angry that why isn’t anyone admit about the mechanical pencil, and its obviously hurt Shaun. Few weeks later, Shaun saw something awesome though it’s jz a small matter but it really made his day by seeing Maryvonne using the mechanical pencil! How cool is that, but if she were to use it and know that it’s from him, that is infinity awesome for Shaun.

The first time he ever met her, he had no idea things would have gone this far. Sometimes he wonder, how different his life would have been if they never met. Those eyes and that gorgeous smile. There were butterflies in his tummy when ever their eyes met. So much that he wanted to say, yet nothing would come out from his mouth. Shaun kind of sacrifice a lot for Maryvonne, but her heart is jz too difficult to get or is it her heart already belong to someone else? No idea. He actually started to learn playing table tennis because she loves it, which it’s totally not his thing. Of course not as pro as her because he is just a beginner, it’s a new thing for him. Few months later, Shaun is tired and fed up of what respond he get from Maryvonne, he is exhausted! Now, he decide to move on and continue searching for another girl where she will really appreciate him. Seriously, a girl that have a guy like him, I would say, she is really the lucky one. Shaun stops everything on her but still he will care or help her up quietly as he stil love her.

p.s it’s not a happy ending but lets just hope that Shaun will put his love to someone that loves him too.

The end~