change

well... i feel dat i've change... i've change to a bad person.. i jz dono y... i dun feel like studying... trials cuming... i reli dono wats d matter to me... and i make troubles... i guess... i not sure... herm.. things around me makes me change u noe.. i jz dono y.. i treat ppl well they dun appreciate it... many many times it happen... dats all dat makes me change... i dun complain last time.. but now i do.. bcz i think its not fair.. haih.. how am i suppose to say.. i'm confuse rite now... everything its jz so messy.... i'm tired of my life.. i feel like wanna die.. my life now its like "wateva"... i think dats y i dowan study... n making troubles...

frens betryed... i blieve dis kind of things happen to all of u too.. i treat them well... i dint think of wanna compare u n me... whr which one is more pro in dis or dat... but y r u comparing wit me?? sumone trying to be like me... wat i do d fela do.. "hahaha.. very funny".. u think wat? u jealous i got more frens than u? i tell u wat... i dono y i got so many frens oso... n i got more frens than u.. not say i berlagak n go around n tell ppl.. eh.. i got alot of frens than u le.. u useless one la.. dis n dat... eh.. cum on man.. i wont so free go do all dis stuff.. u noe wat?? last time i dun say ppl bad thing bhind their back... but ppl make me do it!! so bad huh me... its jz bcz of d ppl around me!!! ppl say bad things about me.. go ahead.. bcz now i've learn dat too!! hu say mine i'll say urs!! all these things happen makes me dun blieve of dis word "best fren"... i dun blieve thr's any best fren in dis world.. seriously is a NO.. cuz my heart hurts so many times.. non of a fren can makes me treat them as my best fren anymore... thr is only "fren" in my world... n y do ppl wanna act?? cum on man.. be urself la u ... dun nid to act dis n dat... trying to make ppl like u... n like dis u hv more frens huh... wat d hell... i think i go hell better than to see u act sial... besides.. wateva i do... sure got ppl judging me... if they see i do anything wrong only... go report... den i kena... den wen i very guai dat time??? huh??!!! at dat time u blind la heh... wen i do sumthing wrong den u suddenly can see la... wat d hell???

tchers... last time... i respect all d tchers... will greet all of them... start from F3... i see all d colours... haha..... after dat... i dun reli respect anymore... i trying to help u... n u say i making troubles... wtf!! n i cant blieve dat tchers dunno how to differentiate wat is 'work' n wat is 'personal business'... i've been so hard working all these while.. wen it cums to my duty... i do well... but wat u judge me is not my duty... my personal issue?? hell... go n judge hell den... wat i do is jz so nt worth.. i treat frens well, i treat tchers well, i do my job wel... and all dis is jz nt worth... very dissapointed wit d ppl around me... even tchers.. haih... i'm not asking u to be perfect... i nt perfect either... jz dun do til u betry all those stuf.. not fair in doin decision... dats y i said... dis world is jz so fucking nt fair!! ntg is fair in dis world... ntg!!! i hate it man.. reli..

i dono wat shud i do... i trying to change bek to d better me.. nt dis bad me... haih... things around makes me change...

p.s leave me alone..