Just Writing What I’m Thinking.

So, writing this the day before I start my culinary lessons at Cilantro Culinary Academy in Subang Jaya. XD my point is, I don’t know when will be next new post so I better update it now. Haha. I am gong KL later after dinner I guess, orientation starts tomorrow!

Well, as I’m going off for studies. I realize that human reality’s really sucks. For those who’s going OVERSEAS for studies gets the attention more than those are not, or those who pretty or handsome ones get the attention more than those whose not. Come on man, we are all human being. Don’t go underestimate people, each person have their very own talent you know. All these stuffs happened really motivates me a lot! For those who underestimating me, ignoring me, treating me like I’m nothing special and so on, go ahead and you better watch out. It’s motivating me to be a better and a successful person in the future. Thank you very much.

I am glad that a few out of so many of my friends that actually hang out with me just because I am going off for studies though it’s just in KL not overseas. Sometimes I’ve been thinking, I got so many friends for what? I prefer to have one or two friends who really treat me well and of course I will definitely treat them well too. I won’t be stating the names here, you know who you are whether you are SINCERE or not that you hang out with me just because I’m going off. I will know and I will always remember. Thank you.

Here’s a dirty little secret. I went to my crush house last night just to feel a LITTLE CLOSER to her. I drove and stopped aside where I got the view to just look at the house one last time before I left. I know I know it’s super creepy for those being crush by some one that you doesn’t feel the same way to and that some one were stalking you as u can say, but try standing on my side, I just wanted to see her but I know it’s not really possible. I am really sorry for making you feel so scared and really irritated. I really miss you. Thank you for making me stronger.

P.s. I hope I will know more sincere friends and my culinary carrier will be a success!! XD

Related to the post before this.

Here’s the one I said I will write another post cuz I din’t wanna spoilt the fun there. Um, the day before we go out. We were having a small maths test in class. Teacher kind of nagging me while marking my paper because I dint write out the answer properly. =.=, I know I know that was my fault, I did not get mad at her for doing that, but, I think she was kind of lost her mind when she’s nagging. She started saying, write down the answer properly MA (she speak in Chinese), write already your MAMA (mother) will appear already. I’m like, okayyyy, I was about to burst, I wanted to keep it to myself until she finish marking my paper. After awhile I really can’t hold it anymore, I just walked out of the class, luckily she started to mark some one’s paper too. I stayed at the corridor outside my class for awhile. My classmates know that I’m crying, so some of them peep at the windows and doors I guess? I wasn’t sure, I just feel it cuz I’m closing my face with both my hands. Then I just walked away to the toilet where I can lock myself inside and cry. My friend, Zhan Yang followed me and trying to console me. He waited outside the toilet, what a good brother.

We sat down somewhere after I came out from the toilet, I just didn’t want to go back to class. It was the last period of the day, so I’ll just wait for the teacher to go out of the class and my classmates to go back cuz I dowan them to see my face. So, I told him if my mum were to be appear if I write the answer properly, I will write no matter how many times! And I started crying again. Then, another friend, Wei Ping came. They kept trying to console me, I just kept quiet cz when I started talking I will cry. When school dismissed, SHIT, that teacher started walking towards our direction. she started talking to me, I’m like I can’t be so no manners for not replying her right, so I talked and I burst into tears again. Haiyo, school dimiss le, students passes by, so embarrassing!! I just couldn’t help.

She talked, bla bla bla…. I just close my face with both my hands, I can’t remember if she is trying to open it up. i remember I told her I didn’t want her to know that I cry because of what she said, that’s why I walked out and dowan to go back class. I don’t think she will realize I wasn’t in class though. Because she told me one of my classmates, Chia Mei, told her that she made me cry then only she knew. If not I don’t think she will know at all and won’t even come and talk to me after class. she even called me around 4 or 5smtg that day itself to talk to me again on the phone, I remember I was at nadeje! Haha. I din’t go back straight after school bcuz I was really having a bad mood. I just wanna take a walk. :) accompanied by Lye Tee and Wen Qi.

P.s. when I’m about to cry, u may talk to me, I’ll just listen without replying you because if I talk I will start to burst!

My birthday bash! On 10th of August, 2012. XD

It’s all started with I was quite amazed that one of my classmate Jin Zheng asked me out AT NIGHT, I mean, he did ask us out but very damn seldom it’s at night. So I’m like, wow, he jio to go out at night wor, I on! Haha. I told him I wanna go eat Wilson chicken rice when he asked me where to go. Lol.

On that day itself, Friday, he asked me again in school where to go except Wilson chicken rice, then I said I wanted to go to the beach because something happened the day before (I will write about it at another post, dint wanna spoil the fun here!) I will love to go to the seaside while I’m having a bad mood. Then he said ok, I come fetch you! Great! I wasn’t in mood to drive too. Haha.

After school, Jin Zheng, Steven, Yong Liang and me went for lunch. I asked Jin Zheng, which Wilson chicken rice shop we going, and if we go Gajah Berang there one den can ask Yong Liang come along cuz he stay around there, just the two of us only not that fun right. He was like, cannot, Yong Iiang’s mum coming back from overseas tonight and he have to stay at home. Yong Liang nodded and agreed by saying “yalor”. I’m like oklo. We continue chatting, suddenly Jin Zheng said “I wanna go buy cake le!” all of them stunt, haha, at that moment I was thinking something is not right. I pretend I dint hear get and after awhile I dint think about it too cuz bad mood ma, plus Steven changed topic after that. LOL.

Went tuition on that day from 5 to 7pm, Jin Zheng’s gonna pick me up at 8pm! While in tuition, I saw Steven and Chia mei dresses up quite nicely, I ajek them, “wah, aft tuition wan go dating eh…” (they both soon to be couple that time) lol. Um,  what cause me to felt weirder was, Teen Ann say to me “see you later” when I’m entering my car after tuition, or maybe he’s saying that to Thiam Rong? Then I started thinking, [Jin Zheng wanna buy cake, Steven and Chia Mei wore kinda nice, Teen Ann said see me later] hmmm, how are they gonna surprise me? At the beach? That is way too windy though. I think and think and think, I’m like nah, cannot be la. I think too much, I stop cz I was having a slide headache that time. (see, even God help them to cover up. LOL) I reached home, get prepared, sat down on the sofa and close my eyes trying to get some rest while waiting for Jin Zheng to pick me up.

He reached, I entered the car and I kept looking at him because I didn’t know why on earth that he kept smiling, nearly to laugh. I looked at him as he drove a few KM away, and I looked in front, I SCREAM!!! LOL. There’s a lot of people standing in front of the car, I didn’t know who, I mean I know they were my classmates but honestly, I only saw Thiam Rong with some human beings around at that moment and the next thing I do was I kept screaming.  Jin Zheng stopped the car, someone opened the door and trying to pull me out from the car but I stayed in it. Out of sudden, *piak* a plate of creams on my face. That particular one started the game with that and others continue with spraying on me! They even open the other door to do so. Yea, I am still IN THE CAR! I’m like, shit, if I don’t go down now, Jin Zheng’s car will be so dirty, and if I go down…….. I wouldn’t wanna think but I understand it’s hard to clean the car so I forced myself to get out of the car. The moment I step out of the car, FULAMAK! More creams and sprays, all over, all around me. No matter where I turn, 360 degrees, I was like being checkmate in the chess game. So you guys wanna know what’s in my mind that time as I could only think but couldn’t speak cuz I was flooded with creams and sprays all over my face? LOL, well, actually, my mind was blank… bhahahahahhaa.. okla, I actually have no chance to think what’s happening, who’s around me, how many of you, not even a second to think how can this happen?? So many question marks, and lastly, how long can u guys cream and spray me man,  when you guys going to stop??! Hahaha, no doubt it was really FUN. You guys really having fun of what u guys did to me at that moment right? I think it last about 5mins I guess?? Or more? Holy crap. Jin Zheng kesian cuz busy cleaning his car and missed throwing creams or spray on me. Haha.

When it finally stop, it’s time to blow the candle! Now, here’s another epic part. While blowing, got fire workssssss. I’m like, OMG so coincident got fire works some more. Then someone started, “you see, we put one the fire works”, and another, “yalor, we shared the money to buy that fire works le”, the following one, “see, so good ryt” and bla bla bla. I’m like, REALLY ar REALLY ar??!!!! LOL, they started laughing but still insist that it’s true where the fire works are for me. So, I continue blow the candle. After that, we walked back to my house. Press the door bell, and my sister open the door. She laughed and took pictures of me. =.= that day was my first time bathing outside my house in the middle of the road with my clothes on because I was TOO DIRTY to enter the house. LOL, I cleaned up a little before entering the house for the real bathing. XD My classmates all waited for me to bathe.

Done cleaning. Eat cake, take pics and we headed to Sunset Bistro at Klebang. :)) Here’s some pictures, I wrote too much so I shall let you guys who is reading this have a rest by enjoying some photos. XDD Seriously, didn’t think it would be this HUGE, cuz we did celebrate almost every single classmate’s birthday with just a normal surprise. I really thought it was going to be a simple one. This was the craziest we have ever done!

now you can see how was it.

bashed!

both sides, front and back. no miss.

Steven's bathing me. lol

me bathing in the middle of the road!

so yea, imagine YOU being surrounded by these ppl. 17 of them! plus the 2 camera holder. XD
Front line from left: Teen Ann, Kheng Guan, Thiam Rong, Lian Chuan, Me, Zhan Yang.
Middle line from left: Wei Ping Chia Mei, Juo-yee, Swee Chin, Daniel, Jin Zheng, Abby, Siow Huey.
The two standing at the back from left: Steven and Yong Liang.

one of the camera girl who took the-right-above pic, Yen Ching.
another one was Jones, sorry dint take a pic wit u. XD

While we’re on the way to Sunset Bistro, they told me they going to celebrate Thiam rong’s birthday. I’m like wow?! I seriously didn’t know any single thing about it. Haha, well, they bashed me 6 days earlier! We gonna give him an even earlier surprise, his birthday is 24^th August. XD I’m like cool, let’s do this! LOL. So, we arrived, eat, drink, chit chat, photo shootings… haha, and the funny thing when the cake for Thiam Rong is out to surprise him was, he asked “why Karen got two cake one?” LOL, another successful surprise guys!! Only that was without creams and sprays. Furthermore, we continue by walking at the seaside, take more pictures and it’s time to pay the bill. As usual, we sat down calculate how much each person has to pay, they treated me! Oh my, I am so lucky to have such friends, THANKS. By the way, I’m still believe that the fireworks are for me, =.= , I felt so stupid after awhile when somebody finally revealed the truth. It was just a COINCIDENT! LOL. So damn LUCKY! :D

oohh, yea, he being sprayed a little too. haha.

Us at Sunset Bistro!

The 4 at the back from left: Siow Huey, Yong liang, Jin Zheng, Daniel.

The middle, left: Lu Ee, Abby, Wan Chin, Wei Ping, Lian Chuan, Juo-yee, Chia Mei, Steven,  Kheng Guan, Yen Ching.

The 4 at the front: Kok Ern, Me, Thiam Rong and Teen Ann.

We head back home after that, but I’m in the car that’s says let’s go fun fair before going back. So the 5 of us, Jin Zheng, Wei Ping, Lian Chuan, Juo-yee and me, in that car hit the fun fair! What a sudden plan. We played awhile only, Bumper Cars and Ali Baba! And we had fun when we were on our way back too, cuz Lian Chuan and Juo-yee laughing like crazy persons!! I had SOOO MUCH FUN that day. Hahaha. XD

Ali Baba!! they are scared, not Jin Zheng n me. Xp

After that day, I was curious about how’d they do it. I asked, they said, they’ve plan it about 2weeks already. I felt even more stupid, cuz I’ve been surrounding by the lies for about two weeks in class! I’ll call it white lies. LOL. Here’s how they discuss, easiest thing, ask someone get me out of the class by saying “let’s go to the toilet”, Wei Ping did it. That’s the time they can discuss in class. Haha. On that day it self, they are all gathered at the petrol station, Petronas at Ujong Pasir, because some of them didn’t know how to go my house I guess. Yong Liang told me, they gathered and distributed the” KA CHANG”(weapons)which are sprays and creams, SEEMS LIKE WANNA GO “PEK YAO” (fight), like those gangsters gathered and distributes those knives, metals stuffs for a fight. LOL!!! OMG, so much fun! That’s really quite many of you guys man! With don’t know how many cars, I couldn’t remember. Haha. The MASTERmind was SOONG JIN ZHENG!! All my other classmates are so cooperative for this “pek yao” event huh? You guys can probably say this to me 

>> GOTCHA!! << :D

P.s. a MASSIVE THANK YOU to all of you for making it a real memorable day. The biggest birthday surprise I would say, right guys? :))

You Won’t Be Forgotten In My Life

People that I won’t forget are the ones that treated me good of course, I will definitely help up if I can afford to whenever you need help. What I mean is, I will treat each and everyone of you according to the way you treated me. Don’t get me wrong, for those who don’t treat me well, once or twice it’s enough and after that you better get out of my sight. I will not want to treat u badly. I will forgive but DEFINITELY not forget. Thanks for both type of people who treats me well or not, it’s a great lessons.

First of all, the person that I will never ever forget is my mother. The one and only woman in this world who suffered for 9months carrying me in her stomach with love, care, patience, and – more than words to say. I’m the youngest, the 5^th child of hers. Can you imagine taking care of your other 4child on your own with one’s still in your stomach? Where you’re feeling uncomfortable here and there, for example, back pain, feeling like vomiting, uneasiness in any movements, etc. And where your husband didn’t care about the family, went out everyday and night, sometimes he even came back with anger which he brings back from his own problems out there and started scolding or beating you up out of sudden, asking you for money, etc. I don’t think you will want to imagine all those stuffs right. Let’s skip about that bloody useless man. 

Okay, I get this from Google. A human body can bear only up to 45 Del (units) of pain. Yet at time of giving birth, a mother feels up to 57 Del (units) of pain. This is similar to 20 bones getting fractured at the same time. So you see that? That's how suffering a mother was. The only woman in this world who would take the pain just to get me into this world and hoping that I will love her just the way she loves me and my sisters. Yes, I do love you mum, ever since the day I was born into this world and I always will.

My mum had nose cancer several years ago, thank god she survived from that! Unfortunately, God only gave us extra few years to be with her. My mum passed away on 22nd of July in year 2007, this time's due to liver cancer. The struggled during the treatments and end up...... I just cant forget it, it's just too scary or I don't know what the words are. The recent days when she's gone, I wasn't really know what was i doing. I went school, back home. I'd just do those things that I have to. I was numb. Numb. Cried of course, I miss my mum, her love and care for us, her cooking where I get to enjoyed it whenever i got back home after a tiring day in school, everything. I still miss her until now. It's too late for me now to treat her well, too late for me to give her an enjoyable life, it's all too late! I just want to hug her again.

Now, I'll just hope that i got the chance to give all of my sisters an enjoyable life, 4 of them. I am not saying that I am the only one who gone through all these shits. I do know that there are people out there are worst than me or maybe faced the same thing. Sometimes, you just can't compare everything together. The feelings aren't the same. And sometimes, those are just words to make your self feel better.

If you doubting me crying while writing this, yes i did a little. I don't cry easily though, I just cant help with this.

P.s. Somehow I think it's great for her because she don't need to suffer anymore.

jz a story 8~

CONTINUE…

Shaun love music, for him no music no life! English song is the main language he’ll listen to, he will only listen to the others when his friends influence him. He loves playing with his guitar, not to mention, his guitar is just like his wife! He always learned songs himself from internet, English songs while he usually listens to English songs. He will never thought that he will learn this one particular Chinese song on guitar, and it’s simply because about Maryvonne. There’s this movie named “you are the apple of my eye” which it’s a Chinese movie from Taiwan. Shaun din’t know much about the movie, all he know is that Maryvonne loves this movie so much including the theme song which is why he learned the song. Besides, he watched the movie twice and thinking about her all the time for the whole movie, because the reason why he’ll watch the show is Maryvonne. “you are the apple of my eye” has also in story book that Shaun is wishing so much that it would publish it in English cuz currently it’s only have Chinese version. Sad, he will just buy no matter how much it cost if it’s in English.

Chinese new year is around the corner! Jamie is back again from Australia for the coming celebrations, and again, they both Shaun n Jamie texting with each other. They both actually talk about who they crush on, it’s so cool right to talk about your crush with your ex. Shaun actually trying to deny that he don’t have any crush, and he din’t know that Jamie has a twitter account and did saw all the tweets from Shaun. He was like, no wonder she know so much but she dint know who exactly the girl is. Jamie keep telling Shaun to go for the girl, hoping that he’ll have the chance to be with the girl. You know what? Jamie actually said that the girl will be very lucky if she really accept Shaun’s love, because she really felt so lucky to have Shaun as her boyfriend once and since she couldn’t be the lucky one, she hope that the girl that Shaun is going after will know it that she’s lucky. Shaun replied, “no use if you’re telling me this, cuz she won’t know that she’s the lucky one unless you tell her, and seriously, no chance at all for me and her to be together.” How good if Maryvonne know she will be a lucky girl to have Shaun as her boyfriend.

What else can Shaun do besides being her guardian angel without letting her know anything about it? Stil repeats d same thing > pass by her hse to check on her safety, wait for her to go back aft tuit, etc. There was 2 months Shaun stop for the tuition. And guess what he do? He still come to the tuition centre after every tuition classes to wait for Maryvonne to go back safely. He is really such a fool, in wasting his time and petrol. But in the end he still thinks its was worth it! Another one fine day, Shaun saw that Maryvonne’s mechanical pencil is so old and a bit spoilt, so he walk all the way to the nearest shop to buy a new one during tuition class! It was raining and he don’t really care, he just walk under the rain cause he wanted to get it for her before tuition class end. He bought, and he know that she won’t just accept it like that, so he done this stupid thing that is he throw it into her bag just like that. Hoping that she will just use it if she suddenly found it in her bag.

The next day, she came around and ask who is the one that put in her bag, no one knows but Shaun. Maryvonne din’t ask get him because she forgot what she said about the stay friend thingy. It means, they have no more communication, how will she ask him. She is actually angry that why isn’t anyone admit about the mechanical pencil, and its obviously hurt Shaun. Few weeks later, Shaun saw something awesome though it’s jz a small matter but it really made his day by seeing Maryvonne using the mechanical pencil! How cool is that, but if she were to use it and know that it’s from him, that is infinity awesome for Shaun.

The first time he ever met her, he had no idea things would have gone this far. Sometimes he wonder, how different his life would have been if they never met. Those eyes and that gorgeous smile. There were butterflies in his tummy when ever their eyes met. So much that he wanted to say, yet nothing would come out from his mouth. Shaun kind of sacrifice a lot for Maryvonne, but her heart is jz too difficult to get or is it her heart already belong to someone else? No idea. He actually started to learn playing table tennis because she loves it, which it’s totally not his thing. Of course not as pro as her because he is just a beginner, it’s a new thing for him. Few months later, Shaun is tired and fed up of what respond he get from Maryvonne, he is exhausted! Now, he decide to move on and continue searching for another girl where she will really appreciate him. Seriously, a girl that have a guy like him, I would say, she is really the lucky one. Shaun stops everything on her but still he will care or help her up quietly as he stil love her.

p.s it’s not a happy ending but lets just hope that Shaun will put his love to someone that loves him too.

The end~

jz a story 7~

CONTINUE…

Here’s a few things I wanna add onabout what happened in December. Maryvonne’s birthday is 7^th of December.Shaun decided to buy a dress as her birthday present so that she can wear it onprom night. It was a secret! Obviously he will need help from some gals, so hetexted a few of his gals friends asking whether are they free. They dint replyhim for few hours. Shaun texted them again cuz he’s too excited to buy a dressfor Maryvonne by saying “I wanna buy a dress, can anyone help me with that?”the funny thing was, they all reply him the next second asking all those “wh”question. Sad case, when talk about buying dress they can actually reply himfaster than asking them whether are they free. Haha.

They decided to help him up and theywent for shopping! Well, shopping is truly not Shaun’s favourite especiallywith all gals but for Maryvonne, he “love” it for just one day. They go for fewshops, try those dresses for them self too. He told them to find a purplecolour dress cuz purple is Maryvonne’s favourite colour. They found two niceone, 100dollar and another is 200dollar. Not to say the expensive one is better,but the 200dollar’s dress seriously nicer than the 100dollar’s dress. Shaun atethe cheapest food for dinner with the gals so that he wont be totally broke aftbuying the dress, cuz he’s sort of decided to buy the 200dollar dress.

While eating, words of advise from thegals. One of them start with “are you gonna buy for her the dress like no joke?”.Another, “if I were her, I dun think I will wear it on that night although I’vealready accept the present cuz its kind of awkward.” And after another, “if shelikes you, then it’s different case”, “itwill be more awkward if she doesn’t even wanna accept ur present”, “if shedoesn’t accept, you’ve waste your money!” bla bla bla… gals jz keep on goingbefore a word from Shaun. They still think that it’s not a good idea to buyMaryvonne a dress. *sign* at the end of the day, he buy nothing. On herbirthday, he dint gv her any present and he dint even wish her. He jz thoughtthat it doesn’t matter for her to receive his wishes or not, his mind set thatshe dun gv a damn about his words.

On the charity event day, Shaun hasthis strong feeling of going to the Mcd just for fun while he has to accompanythe VIPs of the day for lunch at Secret Recipe which is so near to Mcd! He dintknow why he has that strong feeling til the next day he found out thatMaryvonne was at Mcd. And for Christmas eve countdown til 12sharp, Shaun stayover at friends house and so do Maryvonne though they dint met at thecelebration. He knows she stay over at her friend house the next day too, thething is, the two houses is at the same area! Shaun actually walked pass thehouse few times with his friends. Why is it so damn CLOSE?

there's another big big secret! Shaun knows that she's staying with just two guys in her house while her siblings are all outstation for studies. her dad and her uncle. Maryvonne is the youngest child in the family, same with Shaun. can you see that? there's kind of many thing that might make them work. Shaun is worried, sorry for not reli trusting her family, but he's just WORRIED, cuz maybe she'll be home alone? he asked Maryvonne before about where do she stay, she said her housing area's name. he actually go and search for Maryvonne's house with just known about the area's name! housing area with so many turnings plus he dint even step in to the area before! searching for days. he even borrow a motorbike from his friend to search for it cuz it's easier to make a u-turn etc. this is totally INSANE, how to find for this one particular house in this one big area?? he was quite upset that he couldnt find her house for the 1st day, but he dint give up.

there's one time just so coincidence that Maryvonne's car was in front of Shaun, so what he do? he sort of followed her car at the back but seriously the road is exactly the same road for Shaun to go back home. her car turned in an area half way. it was like the other part of the area that Shaun dint know it was the same name. for these few days he couldnt find her house because it's wrong area, it was another part of it! one day, it was raining, Shaun just have this feeling to go around the housing area one more time. haha. yes, this is so drama, gotta say that he's relly damn lucky that he found her house! by recognizing her car and to be confirm her car plat number. again, is the feeling that Shaun had help him. why is it so weird that the feelings he feel are all gotta do with Maryvonne? besides, whatever that you are gonna say that Shaun's a stalker etc. he just wanna protect her IF thr's anything happen.. cuz if thr's smtg happen, at least Shaun knows where to go to find her. and he notice that her house wasnt wit a good security. its kind of dangerous. he wish to be her 24hrs body guard now, so when he's free, he'll purposely pass by her house just for her safety. it's seriously a big secret cuz Maryvonne doesnt noe he found out her house. if she knows, Shaun's gonna be so dead. She will avoid him even more.

Maryvonne's house is in one small lane, Shaun park his car outside and actually walk in with his umbrella to take a clearer look. he can see that she is not very rich, it's just a small house, kind of messy, quite isolated, bathroom was opposite of the house. she use the toilet outside of the house. now you can understand why do Shaun wanna be her 24hrs body guard FOC. he just dun care about her background or the place that she stay, he still fall for her for just the way she is.

p.s thax for the gals friends. cat>jia>sting>joy
n the motobike's owner-steven

jz a story 6~

CONTINUE…

The big day has finally end, the charity event. Shaun feel so happy dat it was quite smooth and it’s end already. Maryvonne ignored Shaun for every meetings n for the whole event after the confession. Sometimes, he’s rather to be stress or busy about d event than to end it. Because if d event end, means it’s the end of Maryvonne n him in involving things together except for tuition. That means, less time to be together in doing something. Too bad, time couldn’t stop going. Shaun wants to treat every committee for a meal, so he asked them for suggestion on where they wanted to go. Shaun himself was thinking about this stall name “pak putra” earlier, when he asked them that question, Maryvonne answer the same stall too. Shaun keep quiet for awhile, thinking that it’s so coincidence that she’s thinking the same stall too. so they have it at that particular stall.

Few days later, prom night. Shaun heard that Maryvonne is coming too! Everyone was so excited! Obviously Shaun is excited to see how beautiful Maryvonne will be, he’s thinking that she will look more beautiful from what he expect for sure. When he 1^st saw her, his heart skip a beat. Wow, it was fantastic . too bad she wasn’t his prom date but a little thing dat doesn’t make him sad is she don’t have any prom date too. Maryvonne’s wit her group of friends and so do Shaun. Throughout the whole night, Shaun stil praying that she can have a dance wit him, she just bought those brand new shoes that her classmate gv her as a present for her birthday, it would be such a shame not to give them a chance to have a dance. at the same time he is scad to see if any guy dance with her as she said she’s waiting for someone. He do not know what shud he feel if its happen. Shaun did get a chance to dance wit a gal which impossible is Maryvonne but is with one of her friend. Glad that he sees no guy dance with her. Another thing Shaun’s happy about was Maryvonne get 1^st runner up for best dress award. When she’s on d stage to get the prize, Shaun’s friend dares him to go in front of her and take pictures. He did, her face change when she saw him taking photos of her. It’s obviously hurt Shaun’s heart.

Shaun did not get to dance with her or even take a photo with her. As usual, he waits for her to go back after the event. He dint know why her dad come so late till he cant wait for her anymore cuz he’s meeting his friends for a drink and so he jz leave the place without seeing her go back safely. Shaun’s worried all night, the damn thing was he cant text her asking if she’s home safely. What he did is stil nothing. The next day in tuition, Shaun heard Maryvonne saying “I was the last one to go back” while she’s talking with her friend. Shaun damn heartache, thinking if he really stay til she go back, he can have the chance to be with just her n him that night. Whatever is it, he is glad that she’s safe even without him waiting.

That’s it, the two events that they waited so long has end in this December. The next thing was Christmas! Shaun celebrate with his friends as usual, he was expecting to see Maryvonne too cz usually everyone celebrate Christmas at this village called Portuguese settlement. At the end of the day, Maryvonne dint appear at all. Shaun's thinking about Maryvonne while he's watching the firework when the clock strike at 12am sharp during Chritmas.

p.s another lonely Christmas but still glad to have friends.